The sad state of things

It's funny when someone who claims to be your friend tries to be an armchair psychiatrist whilst talking to you. If you don't know the facts, don't make shit up. That's not how it works. You are not helping, just annoying. Period. 

All the good intention in the world doesn't amount to anything if you aren't up to speed on the situation and are just talking out of your ass. I would call you out on this to your face, but we aren't in the same state anymore. 

*le sigh* Let me back up and give some perspective. 


This friend asked me how things were going and I responded truthfully.

Terribad. Trying not to think about it though. Hope you are continuing to do well.

 This was obviously not good enough for her. She wanted to lecture me about things. Things she knows nothing about. 

It really got me thinking. It's pretty sad when someone with an incurable disease can find someone to care about them and I can't. I mean real talk I might have an incurable disease as well, but I don't know about it. The point is that she knows and informed the guy and he doesn't care. Charlie Sheen would refer to this as "winning" if that reference isn't already completely dated. Meanwhile, I'm over here trying my damndest to make something happen one way or the other and not achieving anything. Ugh. It kinda sucks. 

Life didn't used to be such a failure. At some point I lost my way. I'm hoping I will be able to get back on the straight and narrow, but I'm not going to hold my breath. You know, just in case. 

In other news, lots of "awwwz" were had because of this gif of Kaitlyn and AJ Lee. 

I love AJ and actually had a dream where I met her. It was amazeballs and I am disappointed it didn't actually happen. 

Well that's it for now. 

-M

"You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain"

There is some sort of conundrum when it comes to this quote for me. I feel that:


a. I will die soon, not a hero


or 


b. I will live just long enough to see myself take up my Villain mantle


And yes I am aware that the quote is merely dialogue in a movie. (A fantastic movie mind you, but that's beside the point.) People just relate to things sometimes. I'm having a really rough day today. I came to the realization that I spend my money (what little I do have) on pointless and useless things and as such am completely screwed when it comes to having to pay for shit I actually need. *le sigh* 


Because of this realization, I started thinking about how I want to change the way I am with money. And because of THAT, I starting thinking about my future. 


I realized that given enough time, I WILL end up being that crotchety stuck up old shut-in bastard that hates everyone just because they are people. I try my best to avoid actual socializing as much as I can. At least with people I don't know. Meeting new people isn't my thing. In fact I've been quoted as saying I hate people or that people as a whole suck. True story. *nods* I can't be the hero that Gotham needs me to be. 


Until the day comes when I am making a decent amount of money, I will always be a worthless SOB just taking up space. Sure I mean something to a few people here and there, but for the most part I don't matter. It's really sad that most of my "accomplishments" are online or in video game form. If you were to ask me about things I've done with my life, most of my responses would be in the form of some sort of video game related anecdote. 


I need to go sell things online to have money for bills/christmas. *le sigh*


More later, maybe.


-M