Unexplained Throat Pain

Right now, 8:16pm on Saturday September 15th, 2012, my throat hurts for some unknown reason. It would appear that whatever is ailing me is slowly making its way from my abdomen (point of origin) towards my head? I dunno. Most of the pain that I feel lately has been in my chest, either towards the right or the left (it varies). But as of like 5 mins ago I started having throat pains. Interesting stuff indeed. Will I die of throat cancer? That would be weird. Out of ALL of the various pains and ailments, dying from something in my throat? That would be fucked up. Jesus man. I really hope I don't die tonight. Or anytime soon actually. Mostly because I would love to see my crush a few more times. I didn't get to see her today and won't get to see her tomorrow either since she is on vacation at work. Boo. :( I haz a sad. 

Everyone at work was joking that I would be finished really early since she wasn't there. Haha, fuck ya'll. lol. She makes me happy. How can you talk shit about something that makes a dying man happy? Probably because no one knows about whatever the hell it is that is bothering me. *shrugs* 

Been listening to a lot of Papa Roach recently. My friend Daniel brought them up during a conversation and I had forgotten how good they are. Pretty sure they would make the top 10 of favorite bands with more than 3 albums. Yeah, maybe even top 5. 

Anyway, I guess that's it. Borderlands 2 comes out on tuesday. I might be away for a whilllllllllllle. lol. 

Take it easy.

-M

 

Making an effort to change

Nothing new to report in the lady department. No prospects or anything. My crush at work and I have been joking around/flirting a bit more than usual, but that's it. She makes me smile but nothing will ever happen. Both of our lives are probably better because of that, but who knows? Maybe THIS is the darkest timeline. I am Evil Matt? (Community reference, in case you didn't know.)

I've been going though this internal debate regarding whether or not to make another OKCupid profile. I know, I'm an asshole. "What happened to your goal/promise?", you might be asking. Well, I honestly didn't even expect to be here right now. As much as whatever it is that is bothering me is annoying me, I'm only human. I have wants and desires. I want a woman. I desire one that I can spend my life with. And since I'm not one to go out to places, online dating seems like my only chance to meet women. Craigslist = teh suck. I do miss certain things about _ i _a though. Our time together wasn't ALL bad. 

But I digress.

I've been on a dubstep kick for a while now. Someone linked to the song "Boring Bitches" by Etta Bond & Raf Riley in a thread on Reddit and I couldn't stop listening to it. I went and downloaded "The Emergency Room EP" by Etta and Raf and it's awesome. Etta Bond is British and man is her voice sultry as hell. I haven't been this much in love with a British woman since the Spice Girls. lol. 

Have I mentioned that I shaved my head? Not sure if I said anything about that yet. Someone on facebook commented on my picture and said, "Slow down American History X!" lol. Yeah so I've been rolling with a bald head for a while now. Just shaved off my goatee today. Looking for a change, ya know? *shrugs*

Oh and I've been trying REALLY hard (for serious) to stay positive about everything lately. New attitude, if you will. It's been difficult, but I think I'm doing alright with it. 

I guess that's about it. Gotta get ready for work and whatnot. Be easy!

-M