Outside Happy. Inside Angry and Bitter

Today I learned: that "fairly quick" means 30 minutes or more.

Friend (9:32):

Making a quick HEB run...should be fairly quick...

Friend (10:04):

About to leave HEB

I really don't understand some people, especially this guy. It's as if he not only doesn't think about others, but if in the off chance that he does think about others that he just doesn't give TWO FUCKS. This mofo knows I work early. Well he SHOULD. He probably doesn't, because he's who/the way he is. Asshat. 

I want to let people know that I'm pissed off/bitter/depressed/angry, but I know that no one wants to hear it. Who does? Especially at this time of the year (holidays). So instead I have chosen this as my outlet. To everyone else I will appear happy or at least NOT sad. lmao. But that isn't the case. I couldn't be worse off. I feel like crap. I'm depressed and the holidays bring out the worst because I want to have someone. I know that I don't deserve someone, but that doesn't mean I don't want them. Ya know? Meh. 

I have to go make a social appearance. I might be back later but I doubt it. *shrugs*

-M

Drifting on through...

Listening to "The Megas" Inspired This

I know I said that maybe this time I will check in with good news. I have none. Are you actually surprised though? I doubt it. Okay well I take that back. I have a small bit of good news. I have a week off from hell, which started yesterday and is already going by super fast. I hope I manage to accomplish something. (Don't bet on it though.)

In the lady front, no news. Had a bit of awkwardness last week at a party when a friend's girlfriend told a different mutual friend to tell me that she "misses" me. Not sure if the friend knows his girlfriend said that or whatever so I didn't even bother to bring it up. Not entirely sure how I feel about it. If for some strange reason she liked me and he was actually cool with letting her pursue that interest I know nothing would come from it. This is going to sound like 'the pot calling the kettle black' but goddamn is she fucking weird. lol. I know everyone else in the group says they like her, but she gets on my nerves like 95% of the time. But that's neither here nor there. 

I haven't run in a while. I need to get back on it. I've already slipped back into my old habit of not continuing something that I started. This is what scares me about the business ideas that I have/had. I grow tired of shit too easily. One of the many reasons I haven't gotten a tattoo. 

I didn't get to see my crush at all this past weekend. I only worked on friday and then went to Ren Fest on saturday and didn't work on sunday either. I won't see her until Thanksgiving. Hopefully she hasn't forgotten about me. lol.

I wanted to start making bead sprites with the intent of selling them on etsy, but I don't think I'm going to. Might be too much of an initial investment. I actually don't know though. 

Guess that's it for now. Gotta get ready for a geekfest with the fellas. Until whenever.

-M

"HOW MANY FRIENDS CAN I LOSE, BEFORE IT ALL MAKES SENSE?"