It's a Start

So I am now a CCENT, or CCENT certified. Whatevs. Not sure if I will be able to get out of restaurants with just this certification, but I hope so. I'm tired of all the restaurant bullshit.

I think Im going to have a hard time, with no experience and all. Maybe I can find an unpaid internship or something. The sooner Im out of cooking, the better.

On a different note, I think its funny that she wants me now. Now that she is potentially in the worst situation of her life (practically used up), she would be willing to settle down with me. Kinda BS if you think about it, considering that she was my first option and now Im her last. Im only entertaining the idea because Im so fucking lonely here. I might as well be in Siberia for fucks sake.

So I saw D____la on someone's facebook page. It was nice to see her, if even in pictures. It looks like she is doing well. I will never forget the good times, even though they were only at work. Lol. I added her as a friend, but Im sure her douche-weed baby daddy will deny me. Whatever. I just mainly wanted her to know that I was thinking about her.

I guess thats it for now.

-M

I should be used to Flip-Flopping

Okay so the insanity thing didn't work out. I did it for one day and then stopped. Mostly because we're on the second floor and I don't think our downstairs neighbors appreciated my fat ass jumping around so much. Gonna have to think of a different plan as far as that goes.

Today is my roommate's birthday. I went out to lunch with him and his girlfriend. It was good. I feel like crap though, since I haven't eaten a lot of carbs in a long time. Ugh...

But being around the two of them, it makes me want what they have. They have a simple relationship. They're both nerdy, simplistic people who don't have super materialistic wants or desires. The obviously care for each other and it's endearing. I want something like that. I want a woman who cares about and shares my interests, who would be willing to make/craft me something as opposed to buying it. Someone who'd be willing to spend money but knows that it isn't necessary. I'm like that NIN song, "Something I Can Never Have." *le sigh*

I should be studying for my CCENT right now, but I'm not. I'm just wasting time before work. Why do I always do this? What the fuck is wrong with me? If I knew that, I could fix it. The only thing I know for certain is that I don't want to work tonight. Hell, I don't want to work at my current job ever again. If I found a new position tomorrow, I'd be perfectly content with never going there again. Ya know? *shrugs*

I guess I'm going to try and get a video in. That's it for now. 

-M 

P.S. I'm listening to the band A Lot Like Birds, and I think they're pretty good.  

Trying hard

So Im going to attempt the CCENT exam next wednesday. Am I ready? Not yet. Will I be? I hope so. If not its gonna cost me $150 to find out. The only thing I know for sure is that I am finally fed up with restaurants and need to get the fuck out of here. CCNA is the way to go about that, but I need the CCENT first.

Thats it for now.

-M