So happy...together?

As happy as I am, I think I might have made a mistake. I have a girlfriend now. I use that term loosely however. 

She is bad at communication. Scratch that, not bad. TERRIBLE. Horrible even. I don’t know her way of thinking, but I feel like if I try to mention something about it to her that she will say something irrelevant. I was in such a rush to be with someone that I didn’t take the time to get to know her. Granted I noticed her lack of communication before (as noted in my previous entry), but I thought it would change once we got together. It hasn’t. 

My heart is hurting, literally. I don't think it's because of her. I'm fairly certain it's because I started running. Maybe I’m going to pass away soon. It might be fitting that once I'm finally starting to have a decent life that it's taken from me. I was afraid to live for so long that I made mistakes that I shouldn't have made. I'm probably paying for it now. Figures that when I make a concentrated effort to improve my situation that something comes along and says 'NO.'

Now I feel weird in the head. I wish I were more articulate and could describe in detail how I am feeling. But alas, I am stuck making mere generalizations rather than descriptions. 

I gave in and texted her thanks to a female friend encouraging me to do so. What has been the result? Nothing. Nada. 

I'm going to go and see Godzilla tonight with random people I met on meetup.com so hopefully I don't get killed. lolz.

-M