I've been trying to reverse my karma. Its obviously been negative for a long, long time and I've been blind to it. I reached out and apologized to a few old friends and we are friends on facebook again. One of them I am 'okay' about. The other I am sorta happy about. If I hadn't ran my mouth so long ago maybe things would be different right about now. As it stands, she is in Minnesota and I am in North Carolina. We shared a lot of happy times that ended way too soon. Hopefully we can re-ignite some of that spark.
The fall weather is approaching us here in NC. Every day it feels like the temp drops a degree or two. Its nice waking up to a cool apartment with the sliding door open (screen closed) and birds singing and stuff. Beautiful. I feel like I've missed out on a lot of things for no real reason. Well no, I know the reason(s). But the answer isn't a good one, so I'd rather just be vague about it. Ugh.
Getting transferred to a new store and having to repeat the same things over and over is annoying yet theraputic. I tell the same stories, same jokes, same lies, etc. to everyone that shows any interest. Even when I think there is a love interest or something, that ends the same way...they have a boyfriend or are talking to someone or whatever. I've been doing a series of videos with The Isaac and in one of his replies to me he dished out this pearl of wisdom: 'Sometimes you are just yourself, and that's the wrong move.' I love it. It is simple yet deep and truthful. I love that dude in the most hetero way possible. Lol.
But yeah that's all I've got for now. I miss Texas.
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